Crystal N Wilkins

Worth It

She was worth it, I said through tears. I’ve experienced tangible moments a few times in my life where I was confronted with someone I served. And I realized to serve them, it cost me some things. Precious things. And yet, I knew deep down in my heart if I was given the choice toContinue reading “Worth It”

Bold-Wild-Free

I hugged him tight, and he did the most interesting thing… He tenderly placed his forehead to my head. As he did, he didn’t look away. Instead, he held eye contact boldly, and he smiled sweetly, giggling as we stared at each other. I smiled, I laughed, And I cried. I was the one whoContinue reading “Bold-Wild-Free”

Learning

I am a slow learner. I am smart. But with certain things, it take me a long time to get it. And learning is usually painful. Always has been. I have a distinct memory of doing flashcards with my mom when I was 4 and having anxiety about not knowing how to read going intoContinue reading “Learning”

Its been a Year

It’s been a year. She said it in a literal way. And in a heavy-sigh expressive way. It HAD been a year. A year since the world turned upside down. Or rather inside out. Where going out became dangerous. When we hunkered down, narrowed our circles and changed all our systems. When our coping strategiesContinue reading “Its been a Year”

My Sweet Valentine…

Fix your eyes on this one truth, God is madly in love with you. –Hillsong Do you believe it? Does that line make you squirm in an uncomfortable way? What are the thoughts that go through your head creating arguments for why it isn’t true. This is one of those lyrics I love-hate. One thatContinue reading “My Sweet Valentine…”

Voice

I’ve been pondering the concept of voice lately. I love humor and am a collector of my favorite peoples laughs. I love to notice what makes someone giggle. The way their nose wrinkles or the way they throw their head back or the particular sound that escapes their mouth when delight overtakes them. It’s funContinue reading “Voice”

Word of the year…

Every year, I choose a word. A word I believe the Lord is trying to teach me. It becomes a mantra, so-to-speak. Usually, the word finds me versus the other way around, which I think is a fun, mysterious game of provision the Lord plays with His kids. Giving us what we don’t know weContinue reading “Word of the year…”

Gifts

It’s a season of gifts. Where the holidays are supposed to be about Jesus, so much of our attention is focused on the giving and receiving of gifts. But then, He is about giving gifts too. He gives us life and breath. He gives us salvation. He gives us the gift of Himself. He givesContinue reading “Gifts”

Home

Psalm 90: 1-2 Lord, you have been our dwelling place in all generations. Before the mountains were brought forth, or ever you had formed the earth and the world, From everlasting to everlasting, you are God. Acts 17:28 In him we live and move and have our being, as even some of your poets haveContinue reading “Home”

Teddy Bears in Heaven

She cornered me in the hallway, wide-eyed. May I talk to you? Of course, I said. We leaned up against the wall as she smiled to her children behind her. I’m going to talk to Miss Crystal—you all go play in the room. Meet ya there in a few. My mind spun as I rememberedContinue reading “Teddy Bears in Heaven”